The last day

This is the last time I am going to that place, hereafter am  a trespasser. My heart gained weight when I enter our corridor the place where our presence felt the most, our laughter’s, comments, where we walked pulling our low waist jeans up every time it drags down, even the hard slap that I gave….those lost moments are priceless, they wont stand still, it get distorted as time moves on. the last hugs from friends ,actually it was more than friendship……..it was five guys from very different worlds but had a very common thing  ‘come what may, we are like this  ‘……….but now  we are no fire brand…those eyes look dispirited ……..i forget how to cry…..its getting late…..time to leave……..without looking back….passing by the past. I couldn’t look at anything back……
After few weeks I saw everyone’s pictures in a social network, everyone smiling enjoying every bit of some occasion ……seems like I never was there with them….nothing has happened………I am the one who lost them…..they had everything…. ‘Move on ‘ they say……..for me its ‘now what?’

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Suspended between life and death for almost eight hours….life had more gravity on me…..death ignored my weakness to live….here I am again …..to start everything from a scratch

Rush of blood

I could see my blood oozing out in rush to turn the clear water red, red as vine. I could no more see my hand inside the pool of water. It was so thick red. These are the last moments of my life, life of a unsuccessful angry human. The journey is coming to an end; I am going to understand the greatest truth about life, death. It’s most confusing. Is it the life we lived or rather survived is real or death, the unknown, the enigma is real.
I always wished to walk into death with a smile, like the greatest revolutionaries did,but here I am not killed…or hunted….system made me to do this.am loosing mind,ts getting blur everthing around me looks so disturbing ….even the sound of water drops echoed with million decibels .
I cant write more, every system is going down..weakening …Am leaving to the undiscovered life…..love you all…
hastalavictoria siempre

I QUIT

I QUIT WRITING.......ONLY WEAPON I HAD ALSO HAS BEEN FREEZED .THANK YOU ALL WHO FOLLOWED MY BLOG.

a run into instinct....

i ran faster that day...fastest in my whole life.mind was black and eyes  all white."cross the bridge with all the enrgy you have " was the only thing in my consciousness.
we three including shiv n vish were comin back all tired after a  trekking in the  cliff  near our campus.on the way back theres a railway bridge,one line bridge ..once you are in the bridge you cant walk side ways....walk straight or jump down to death.when we three came close to the bridge a train was coming from the opposite direction and we just went aside the bridge waiting for the train to pass by.as the train was approaching ....shiv just asked casualy 'if anyone can cross the bridge now i'll give you 500bugs"..
'you sure?' i am all excited. 'yes he replied'
without another moment to waste i ran hard to cross the bridge....the glimpse of the train which i felt had the only intention to hit me and fail me in the bet ...it was roaring towards me to win its might.the sound made by my footsteps on the old metal plates of bridge was louder than the noise of train's engine.

i ran faster that day...fastest in my whole life.mind was black and eyes  all white.'cross the bridge with all the enrgy you have " was the only thing in my consciousness.leaving behind soul i reached past the death bridge seeing  my opponent just finishing behind  me...loosing.
it was not the five hundred bugs that made me run but was the instinct that pushed me to run.i enjoy my instincts,that rush of blood,that spark of a second...i love my instinct.
i dedicate this post to shiv.love you 4...me the fifth.....n us the gang

drops dat purify......

i don't want to be the little Johny who asked rain to go away.....why cant he play in rain?
just look out from your window when it rains..when drops drips slowly from the grills you could watch a brand new canvas of nature reveal in front of you...when each element of nature become beautiful frame for your eyes.when the first drops from the unknown paradise above kisses the earth i can smell life...the smell that symbolize the love made by two worlds...
i could feel nature exulted when heavens pour down on her.....purifying her past odds....i saw them dance in trans with the wild wind with more and more thirst for her love,her addiction,her rain. the music it creates with each object in earth as an instrument to create the song of universe.
i can no longer stay back behind the window grills...i want to get absorbed in that wild but serene phase of nature,for that playing football in rain is a good option.football and rain is a intertwined combo which couldnt be seperated.the game which is a fervor for mankind and rain which is the same for nature.playing on bare foot feeling the pulse of earth ,who cares for the stained clothes......rain swept my sweat like a mother does for her child.
every good thing have to come to a halt......very slowly rain withdrew back to the world above.

but the very next morning was nature wearing her most beautiful outfit.....like a woman after shower....soaked but tranquil.the golden rays from sun warming her ...but still those drops left back by heavens in greenery tricles down with the crave for making more love.

the bullet getaway.

my new friend was more or less mad like me......talks n talks....we get close very easily
i told her once that i would like to roam around whole of India on a bullet.and i would live in naxal affected areas and redirect the present extremist movement and I'll walk towards death like a baby who doesn't know the fear of death...smiling. she said she would also come along with me....and we'll die togather."we'll leave exactly after 3years on a friday at 10 50pm".becuase it was on a friday 10 50pm we fall in a imaginary love.we'll cal our venture...the bullet getaway.
escapism is within all of us...but to escape with the person you love ...even in dreams ....feels heavenly.

"There comes a moment when my heart must stand alone
On this lonely path I've chosen
Like a house thats not a home

Sometimes when I feel I've had enough
And I feel like giving up
You willed me to be all I can be
Now nothing can stop me

I believe in the power that comes
From a world brought together as one
I believe together we'll fly
I believe in the power of you and I

This is the moment we have dreamed of all our lives
We'll be the change we wish from others
We'll stand tall for what is right
And in my heart there'll be no doubt
The arms of the world will come reaching out
And embrace me to be all I can be
Now nothing can stop me "...........olympic theme song