when i saw i was horrified......
i tried to console my mind...NO....
its not me....ts somebody else...........
hard to believe its me.....why i am like this??
with none around and soul separated i saw me...
i cant bare seeing me like this.....
i want to run away......far......
to face real mine is like slitting my throat slowly...
the me i saw was so ugly by all means....
not beyond an infant in life with no comparable innocence........
a worm which wore the mask of higher degree species.....
one who faked himself....one who always had excuses for failure....
who lived with a soul in darkness.....which feared light.....
with no earnest desire...acted as a pathetic romeo to justify my heart
insanity was a veil for my normality....
panting at the starting point itself staring at the runway....
i closed my eyes without strength to see further ...the brutal side...with tears sprouting
i am afraid to explore that brutal reality.....that 'me'
