cat

i am a cat.i am white in color.i beg in the backyards of every house in the neighborhood for my daily bread.i have to hide myself in the dark nights to protect myself from the brutal male counterparts of mine.
but one day i got raped brutally....by a scar faced cruel looking tom cat......he bite my neck and failed me physically to satisfy his momentary pleasure.and i haven't seen that big scar faced long tailed animal after that.i got pregnant...i got weak...i have to wander in search of food even in garbage with this .i gave birth to three cute kittens in the dark unused room in the backyard of a house....but have to keep changing the places from protecting my kids from predators which include many.every time i had to shift i had to take them biting them on the neck stretching my muscles.its hard.three of them always want milk.poor kids what does they know.one day  coming back after begging for food,i dint find my kids.i cried and wandered madly in search of them ,every nook and corner...i dint find any sympathetic face.no one seems to care..i cried and went every house searching for my beloved ones...may be that man would have carried them in a plastic bag and thrown them far away...my innocent ones dont even opened there eyes...but before the memories of my kids faded i was raped again and got pregnant again....i am weaker...but this time i'll bring up my offspring.

protagonist

this is role is so spontaneous and voluntary for him....repeating every dialogue ,every movement every expression like the first time ....a very deep rooted guilt has grown in his mind doing this character....every time he is on stage he ask in mind for forgiveness from Anne ...no...queen Jocasta....and for the last time i am performing the most tragic hero ever created

the excitement of doing Sophocles greatest tragedy was over by the first performance itself.....there after every stage was like a walk on the fire.....after knowing Anne was his mother in the first performance...he couldn't look into her eyes.....'i had sex with my own mother' the feeling strangles his mind every time....the line between Anne and Jocasta blurred after every performance...this stage will be the revelation...'i'll be a free man after this' he kept on saying during the play.....'i love Anne but i cant never lead a life with you"

with the end of every scene there riots in his mind.....he wanted to run free to some meadows plunging a dagger in his eyes....suffering for his sin....

the last scene is being performed.... Anne is mockingly hanged....but for his Jocasta is hanging dead in front of him.....like the son pleading for mercy in front of his mother ...he screamed holding the suspended feet of Anne "forgive me Jocasta forgive me please" he screamed....crying his heart out he fall on the stage.... Oedipus is being freed ...the shackles are being braked....but the brewing Oedipus complex inside him for Anne remained in his imprints....

the audience was clueless with the break down of the actor.....for them he has to continue suffering for his brutal sin....but the protagonist died moments ago....the bare man is crying loud blabbering.....along with the Greek maxim "no man should be considered fortunate until he is dead"

note:Oedipus is considered to be the greatest tragedy by Sophocles .the theme of the play is that Oedipus the unknowingly had to make Jocasta his queen,which is actually his true mother,at the end of the play he realizes his sin and punish himself for this .

after effects of addiction

I"M DONE

my blood yearns to burst out...

the blade made way for it...

even the pain of that is so bleak ..

with the pain of void she creates...

the hysterical variant of love which weakened me...

i cant contain you...

because you are too heavy for me...

time is not static and tormenting in your absence....

i cant bear you in me...

so i choose a way out...

EYES

i am lost for those eyes...

which was the only thing i could see....

rest was blurred when those eyelashes touched mine....

it draw me in like a blackhole...

looking at those glowing dark...

was the most intimidating sight..

which made me feel like i got only eyes intact...

i wont panic if i go blind hereafter....

becuase i saw her eyes....

Lo/s/t

never have i seen a night so blank.....

without a golden moon or stars to illuminate...

never have i ignored the drizzling from heaven...

never have i missed the bliss of lonliness...

you ruined my pleasures...

but i don't regret as long as you are there

to fill those voids

by an addict