pls don't disturb!!!

we were at the backyard of a hold house....rest of the guys are already down inside that old house

but we were still talking over the rich vein of alcohol running through us...he was the one in our gang just like all of us...full on fun...but somewhere i have always felt that he loves a self confinement pampering his sorrows...ya there seemed to play a melancholic chord inside the rock music.....

two full bottles of whisky is almost over...and i had my round of puking done..

the topic varied from spirituality,socialism,communism,love.....we kinda feel that  our intellect is vast, when venom goes in....so me and my friend are arguing over everything....then we pause....silence is filled with thoughts and cigarette...again new topic ....

'dude you are always selfish...you never bothered about the issues happening in the class...you just dont care about anything other than your life' me

'ya i agree i don't feel like putting my head in every problems...i am not harming anyone...let me live my life peacefully' -he

'but if we all stand together we can bring on change....not only in college...it applies in life...you not participating means you are weakening a movement' -me

'fuck you man you still is in fake reverie of glorified leftist revolutions.....it wont happen anymore...get over it live your life'-he

'you bloody ass...its only because of revolutions that we made change....atleast there is some equality made reality...you haven't ever faced hardships in your life...that is fucking reason why you are not bothered about anything other than your fucking happy life.....you haven't ever gone through poverty ,discrimination or anything....you have money....your dad makes it for you...you have your choices....and you live happily except for silly love failures what the fuck have you faced in life?'-me

'you fucking bastard...what will you do if someone abuses your mother?'-he

'i will make sure he wont go home without a bleeding nose'-me

'ya...but i wont...i dont give a damn....fucker....from the day since i could think and perceive, my parents were fighting each other...and how will you react if you know your mom has another affair....?'-he

i was numb...i couldn't even think of that

'ya....i was living in my house all these years in my house seeing my dad and mom fighting....i can't blame her..its her choice.....but what should i do man....she never loved me....i too never did...we rarely talks....my family is a  drama...that's the reason why i decided to persue my studies far away...and stay in hostel....and i don't care about the fucking issues happening around me....call me selfish or whatever...' -he

he was saying more and more loudly zeroing to silence

he broke and tears was virtually flowing from his eyes....but mine was already down the cheeks..

.

we hugged each other and cried for sometime....and slept outside that house so peacefully....

the next day when we woke up he gave me his usual classy smile and said 'i was bit over yesterday asshole.....whatever i said keep it to yourself'

'hahaha......fuck you man...gimme that fag ....and you better keep your mouth shut when you booze next time'

:P- replied him

he enjoyed his life completely....and i watched that fucker with amusement...and wondered how he could cope with that mourning silence of the loneliness in life.............