reality checks!

many a times i feel  reality is a projection of sub conscious .what we see is a mere visualization of the universe within....our mind has everything in it ...every question has answer inside yourself.... the path of our material reality is just the first dimension of oblivion...and i strongly believe a soul will be blessed with all experiences and pass through every possible emotions,its extremities, every possible way of life and every possible feeling,until it finish the  circle of complete knowledge through experiences, the soul will not find the peace of mind it seeks for and  it sheds the outfits and find newones ,the membrane called our physical body that divide  the projected and partial reality from the subdued  but complete universe within.so i live and live and live to find that euphoria of being complete.
i poses a question !
why does an idiot called human considers a diamond so valuable that he even fight a war for it,even after knowing that it is an artificially beautified stone??why is it so precious?? what is the pride factor??
you find answers....
on a night while i was drowning in darkness...i was pondering why men always crave for the nudity of women...for their body...is it because they hide it with clothes all the time...is it that mystery under cover??or is it the aura of womanliness that a man is unknown of?? or because of all the social dogmas ,culturing and and expectations attached with women?? similarly for women...they seek for man...his most hidden and hyped about possession,the stick of creation,dick. no,pls you got time to laugh later
"i exist becuase,you imagine i do" i've read this words somewhere....and i feel the same....i am a concept for u...my physical presence is least relevant .....my reactions,the words i use, behavior, ideologies,and all other associations i am linked with makes me ,capsuled in a single world called by my name.....the wildest possible abstract which is accepted by every one.....
so every word in this world holds a concept...attached again with this  lot more of  beliefs, expectations,culture,dogmas,
the concept that twinkling or shining is a cosmic wonder or divine makes diamond precious...the adventure behind every diamond,the bloodshed behind it makes it even more vauable and demanding....it takes skillful people to cut that raw stone to a twinkling beauty makes it wanted.. and women ,all poets writers artists and common man haven't yet understood the concept of women completely....so we still look at her with the same enthusiasm  and watch the magnificent creation she is.....

OK I LOST SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY!! DID I?? OR CAN YOU JUST DECODE WHAT I MEAN???!!