Saturday, October 6, 2012

looser's end

i am bonded...rather bounded...as some say of me as filmy...melodramatic and fake..
arguments are long gone...to fight means to debate in a profound way in chat rooms,
the phases are past,i refresh every time when i lit a joint...like the legends said you wont receive any pain
the world looks so simple then,very simple to live,just smile ,you live....a reaction that is so pleasing for everyone
but the rare moments i am hit by the concrete hardness of reality, i fail,i think of a time when the sickening sense of revenge looms over me...
whenever i go deep inside myself...its total chaos...and so disturbing....depressing and ruining,total backlash.
i once had a belief in judgement day,and it remains as a fantasy
if your mother's tears holds u, advice's restrict you....admit it ,you are weak than u imagine.
now sitting in my home....every prick of a noise burst my peace i seek for,every shouts come in like a hammer to break my skull....
am dangerously in love with peace....that when it is lost....the streaks of reality plug wires in my senses that kills me...
i want to walk a lonely way killing the unwanted ....and resting in midways with my comrades for a smoke and laugh purely...
i want to washout every man made stains from my mind ,and start fresh like from a blackout to enjoy the abundance of freedom....and drown in it...and die in it ...killing the unwanted


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